At Armageddon battle Jesus defeats His enemies of armies attacking Jerusalem to set up His Kingdom to reign on earth. Other nations left behind on earth after Rapture and in millenial Reign of Christ with the saints to visit Israel to worship King Jesus. Those who refuse to do so will have no rain as the word of God says in the Bible. At the end of millenial reign of Jesus Gog and Magog in Ezekiel 38 will gather together with the nations to attack Jesus spurred by the release of satan after thousand years bound. The nations are many like sand on seashore however God sends fire from heaven to consume them forever. Creates perfect peace on earth and perfectly Holy State for the New Jerusalem from heaven to come down to the New Earth. Almighty LORD GOD Yahweh will come down to Dwell among wo/men on earth because all things are made new so worthy of God’s presence on earth. After the 6000 years from time of Adam and Eve now sin and evil is forever finally wiped out so a perfectly very good human beings are restored according to God’s original plan. The battle is finally over, evil and death destroyed so Saints live happily ever after on earth. Those who rejected Christ and judged before the great white throne cast into hellfire tormented by the WRATH of God and Wrath of Christ. Jesus sets up a literal physical Kingdom on earth not symbolic metaphor. God means exactly what HE says in the Bible so ensure you are God’s Children.



IMG-20180321-WA0000The Bible says during the Passover Jesus was crucified the “people from ALL THE NATIONS UNDER HEAVEN” in the city of Jerusalem shouted, ‘crucify Jesus and let His blood be on them and their children chose Barabbas. Acts 2, verse 9, says list of people from all places under heaven were in Jerusalem 3 times in a year. Were Parthians, Medes Elamites, residents of Mesopotamia. Judea and Cappadocia, Pontus and Asia, Phrygia Pamphylia, Egypt, parts of Libya of Cyrene, visitors from Rome, Jews and proselytes, Cretans and Arabians.”All people in Jerusalem Jewish converts as text says: dwelling in Jerusalem as Jews, devout men from every nation under heaven.” Jews by birth but in the crowd were Gentiles converted to Jewish faith. Devoted Jews or proselytes Gentile-Jews present yearly in crowd from all nations under heaven every year for 33 years in Jerusalem those particular days. Who-Killed-Jesus 3 million Jewish converts in Jerusalem, going to temple, on appointed days for 3 major festivals in Hebrew calendar for people of Israel to be at the temples. So pilgrimage festivals included the Feast of Passover–“Pesach,” in the Hebrew language in early spring; the Feast of Weeks, “Shavuoth,” which occurs fifty days in late spring, “Pentecost,” means “fifty days after Jesus Resurrection.” The third major pilgrimage festival, Feast of Booths, Tabernacles, “Sukkoth,” in the fall. Kenyans were there too, Ethiopians, all other nations were represented by Jewish proselytes. Ethiopian eunuch or Christian believers from all nations travelled 3 times in the year required for the feasts for all men. Israel is a multicultural City of God from diverse nations of various people living during persecutions and feasts.who-killed-jesus-4-638 Since time of Abraham, his entourage of converts from various nations lived in Canaan now Israel from there to and fro during famines or droughts or exiles by God. After restoration of Israel worship service continued in Temples attended by Jesus and disciples too. Multitudes from countless nations and people from all tongues, kindred and nations saved in heaven holding palm branches is beauty, diversity, humanity displayed all brilliance as all types of saved people meet in heaven in God’s presence. Need to read his Bible Jesus as said He could have called down armies of heaven to RESCUE Him but chose to LAY DOWN His life as ransom for many. Nobody killed Jesus, He offered His Life Ultimate Sacrifice to freely save people. The generation that crucified Jesus is not alive to take to court because Jesus has forgiven all by praying on the Cross, FATHER FORGIVE THEM FOR THEY DO NOT KNOW WHAT THEY WERE DOING.7747C0E7-105E-4392-9141-2E5D949A8F71 who-killed-jesus-2-638All people sinned so this led to need for redemption on Cross for Jesus to atone for sin. Therefore he bears part of the responsibility too as a sinner. The Bible says all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God, there is none righteous without the blood of Jesus, no not one. Romans enforced crucifixion to ensure people do not follow Jesus for a political upheaval to takeover ruling the nation as God allowed due to rebellion. It was revealed to Jesus Judas Iscariot will betray Him so could cast demonic Spirit out of him. Jesus gave His Word, committed Himself in heaven came to earth saved mankind by voluntary will. The Seed of woman promised in Genesis crushed head of serpent Conquering death took all sting of death from satan. So enemies of Jesus thought they were killing Him to get rid of Him and His ministry shocked Jesus RESURRECTED after 3 days in grave. Jesus continued 40 more days after resurrection and to heaven alive forevermore. Jesus is the only Saviour alive so is Coming back again in Rapture then later in Second Coming to live on earth in Millennium. doul5God HIMSELF will come down in New Jerusalem to Dwell on earth in Israel. Jesus is not dead but ALIVE IN HEAVEN. Jesus said His Kingdom is not of this world so had no intention of any political affiliation as they accused Him. The Chief Priests, Pharisees, Sadducees, and the crowd colluded and condoned to falsely accuse Jesus to try to kill Him to attempt to stop God’s Kingdom on the earth. When Jesus asked God in the garden of Gethsemane to remove cup of sorrows God sent angel to comfort Jesus knowing Jesus will resurrect from grave after death. Just as one cannot make an omelet without breaking eggs, Jesus had to die to prove His Own resurrection. It was necessary for Jesus to die so when Peter tried to stop Jesus from fulfilling His Mission rebuked him so said, ‘satan get behind me.’ Jesus is not victim but gave His Life Freelly to save mankind. PM-Blog_Who-Killed-Jesus_4-6-16-1020x420IMG_20180321_143456God loved the world so gave HIS ONLY begotten Son to die to save all people on earth. Any issues with God’s salvation plan in Jesus go seek redress from God ALMIGHTY. Jews did not exclusively kill Jesus so all nations are responsible for they were represented in Jerusalem and took part in shouting crucify Him. Jesus makes it clear nobody took His Life but He gave His Life freely as a random for many to be saved from sin and death to gain eternal life. Without Jesus’ sacrifice there is no redemption of sin, Jesus died to set mankind free. Jesus is Alive today in heaven Coming in clouds in Rapture to rescue the elect into heaven into the presence of God. Jesus returns to earth for a Millennial Reign to Reign on earth with God eternally in Jerusalem Israel.


679px-Kramskoi_Christ_dans_le_désertJesus wept so it is alright and necessary to cry from pain, sorrow, grief, loss, abandonment bereavement, fear, tears of joy. Cry if you feel a need to do so privately or in public discreetly. It is a misconception crying is a sign of embarrassment and weakness so told not to cry so be tough and hide true feelings. Some conceal it all cost so internalize feelings and then implode through anger, hurts, undealt with vitriol or unresolved health issues. Crying is the response to overwhelming emotions so some people cry easily than others during times of intense sadness, profuse joy or overwhelming relief. It is natural part of creation in the “image of God” in Genesis 1:27 as Bible describes of having qualities and emotions of God. Jesus lived on earth among and felt full human emotions in Hebrews 4:15 so expressed feelings so wept on behalf of people in John 11:35, Luke 19:41. Jesus wept in Garden of Gethsemane during intense prayer night of arrest, crying God stop imminent death in Matthew 26:38-39 and Hebrews 5:7. In hard times King David cried and worshipped God.king-david-playing-the-harp-1024x971In days of Jesus’ life on earth He offered prayers, petitions and fervent cries and tears to God to save people from death. God heard Jesus because of His reverent submission so sent an angel to comfort Him in sorrow.” Since Jesus is God in the flesh, we can say that, when Jesus cried, God cried. God-Man Jesus experienced human life and as Spiritual God became man endured pain, human experience. Jesus identified with grief and sorrow, sheds actual real tears due emotions, pain, sorrow on behalf of all mankind that overwhelmed Him. Jesus has emotions so understands the need and importance of expressing feelings to be in control of His mind. Although Lord God, He chose to make Himself emotionally responsive to our choices.

• He sorrows against sin (Genesis 6:6; Psalm 78:40).
• He is sad if rejected (Isaiah 65:1–3; Jeremiah 8:19).
• He grieves idolatry and worldliness (Exodus 20:5;34:14; Joshua 24:19).
• He rejoices with love over His children (Zephaniah 3:17; Isaiah 62:5).
• He hates wickedness (Psalm 5:5;11:5; Proverbs 6:16).
• Has great compassion for His creation (Psalm 103:8; Joel 2:13).

2015327_univ_cnt_3_mdJoseph cried because he understood what brothers were saying and had to turn aside so that they could not see his tears in Genesis 42:21-24. He knew real repentance involved feeling of regret over consequences of sin so proceeded to forgive them and told them what the devil meant for evil God turned to good to Bless all nations from famine. So did Jesus instead of vengeance sacrificed His Life as ransom for many. Scripture says He could ask LORD God of heaven’s armies (Zechariah 8:14; Isaiah 22:14) to rescue Him if He wanted to. Jesus cries tears to show us God’s sorrow in a very human way. Jesus came to help people understand God so told disciples “If you see me, you’ve seen Father God” (John 14:9). His experiences expressions help us open up to bring understanding incomprehensible grief. So experienced gruesome pain on the Cross to compare with human grief is hard to understand such spiritual realities. Jesus showed us the Father in physical comparison only way to grasp sacrifice and atonement for sin from Gospel Truth. So, the Bible records Jesus Wept for us to know He understands our feelings. He created us with ability to weep, allowed Himself to weep in the flesh as a good example. In the Bible there are numerous examples of many people who cried and wept on various occasions. This is so reassuring to confirm to people crying is a normal part of life so it is perfectly acceptable.IMG_20180319_180601

Crying is a relief from trapped emotion in moment of pain. God uses tears or crying feeling to helps overcome to prevail not to be anxious, stressed, fearful, overwhelmed says Isaiah 46:11. Jesus understands us so weeps with us in same way for same reasons to comfort us and intercede on our behalf before Father God. The world say men don’t cry, but in the Bible the strongest people cry out to God as Jesus God in the flesh did, David cried, Joseph and Peter wept. Cry on God’s shoulders in prayer and allow Him to comfort you as Psalm 34:17, The righteous cry out to God for help in times of distress and God hears. Jesus during the Last Supper told Peter he will deny and disown him 3 times. It written in Bible in Gospel of Matthew 26:33-35, Gospel of Mark 14:29-31, the Gospel of Luke 22:33-34 and the Gospel of John 13:36-38. The denial accounts in Gospels show repeated denial of Peter among people. Peter remembered what Jesus said during the Passover so went outside to weep bitterly. After Jesus resurrected from death on the third day, He visited disciples in the Upper room in John 21:15-17. So Jesus asked Peter 3 times if he loved Jesus and Peter said yes so repented and forgiven by Jesus who made Peter the rock on which to build His Church and Peter became the first head of the church. Peter cried for his sins so Jesus saw his genuine regret and forgave Peter. King Solomon said there is a time to cry and weep in life. It is essential to allow men to cry not to mask pain with alcohol or substance but to let raw pain out to wash out their grief, anger, bitterness among others. The Bible says weeping may endure for a season but not comes in the morning so blessed are those who weep now for the shall laugh in eternal life. In heaven there is no more pain, weeping, sorrow, grief, lamentations, crying because GOD HIMSELF comforts us and takes all pain away. Therefore in heaven is a glorious presence of refreshing joy forevermore.

Crying & Weeping Bible Verses:

Genesis 23:2Sarah died in Kiriath-arba (Hebron) in land of Canaan; Abraham mourned for Sarah and to weep for her.

Psalm 42:3Tears are my food day and night they say to me where is your God.

Revelation 5:4Then I began to weep greatly because no one was found worthy to open book or to look into it;

“Genesis 27:38Esau said to his father, Do you have just one blessing, my father? Bless me, me, father Esau lifted his voice and wept.

Genesis 37:35His sons and daughters rose to comfort him, but refused to be comforted said, Surely I will go down to Sheol mourning for my son.” So his father wept for him.

Judges 11:37She said to her father, “Let this thing be done for me; let me alone two months, go to the mountains and weep because of my virginity, I and my companions.”

Ruth 1:9“May the LORD grant that you may find rest, each in the house of her husband.” Then she kissed them, and they lifted up their voices and wept.

1 Samuel 1:8Then Elkanah her husband said to her, “Hannah, why do you weep and not eat and why is your heart sad? Am I not better to you than ten sons?”

1 Samuel 20:41When the lad was gone, David rose from the south side and fell on his face to the ground, and bowed three times They kissed each other and wept together, but David wept the more.

2 Samuel 3:16Her husband went with her, weeping as he went, and followed her as far as Bahurim. Then Abner said to him, “Go, return.” So he returned.

2 Samuel 13:1Tamar put ashes on her head and tore her long-sleeved garment on her; and put her hand on her head so went away crying loudly as she went.

2 Samuel 15:30David went up the ascent of the Mount of Olives, and wept as he went, and his head was covered and walked barefoot. All the people who were with him each covered his head and went up weeping as they went.

2 Samuel 18:33The king was deeply moved and went up to the chamber over the gate and wept. And thus he said as he walked, “O my son Absalom, my son, my son Absalom! I should die instead of you Absalom, my son!”

2 Kings 8:11He fixed his gaze on him so ashamed, and the man of God wept.

2 Kings 13:14Elisha sick with illness to die, Joash the king of Israel came to him wept and said, “My father, my father, chariots of Israel and its horsemen!”

2 Kings 20:3“Remember O LORD, how I walked before You in truth with whole heart and did what is good in Your sight Hezekiah wept bitterly.

Job 16:16“My face worn from weeping, And deep darkness is on my eyelids,

Psalm 39:12“Hear my prayer, O LORD, and give ear to my cry; Do not be silent at my tears; For I am a stranger with You, A sojourner like all my fathers.

Psalm 56:8Take account of my crying, put my tears in Your bottle and book.

Psalm 102:9 I have eaten ashes like bread mingled my drink with weeping

John 11:33Jesus saw her weeping and Jews who came with her weeping was deeply moved in spirit and troubled,

John 20:11Mary was standing outside the tomb weeping; and so, as she wept, she stooped and looked into the tomb;

Deuteronomy 34:8Sons of Israel wept for Moses in the plains of Moab thirty days; then the days of weeping and mourning for Moses came to an end.

Psalm 137:1By the rivers of Babylon we sat and wept and remembered Zion.

Numbers 14:1The congregation lifted up their voices, cried, people wept all night.

1 Samuel 11:4-5The messengers came to Gibeah of Saul and spoke these words in the hearing of the people, and all the people lifted up their voices and wept.

1 Samuel 30:4 David and people with him lifted their voices and wept until no strength in them to weep anymore.

2 Samuel 1:12They mourned, wept, fasted till evening for Saul and his son Jonathan and the people of the LORD and house of Israel, because they had fallen by the sword.

2 Samuel 1:2“O daughters of Israel, weep over Saul, Who clothed you luxuriously in scarlet, put ornaments of gold on your apparel.

2 Samuel 3:34“Your hands not bound, or your feet put in fetters as one falls before the wicked, you have fallen.” And all the people wept again over him.

Job 2:12When they lifted their eyes at a distance did not recognize him, raised their voices and wept. Tore his robe and threw dust over their heads toward sky.

Psalm 80:4-5O LORD God of hosts, how long will You be angry with prayer of Your people?

Isaiah 15:2-3They went to temple, Dibon to high places to weep. Moab wails over Nebo and Medeba everyone’s head  bald and every beard is cut off.

Isaiah 33:7Brave men cry in streets, The ambassadors of peace weep bitterly.

Mark 5:38They came to the synagogue official home, saw commotion, people loudly weeping and wailing.

Acts 21:13Paul answered, “Why, weep and break my heart? I am ready to be bound and to die at Jerusalem for the name of Lord Jesus.”

Matthew 26:75Peter remembered word Jesus said, “Before a rooster crows, you will deny Me 3 times so wept bitterly.

Mark 14:72Rooster crowed second time. Peter remembered Jesus made remark to him, “Before rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times began to weep.

Luke 22:62He went and wept bitterly.

1 Samuel 2:33‘I will not cut off men of from My altar but eyes will fail weeping and soul grieve increase of house dead in the prime of life.

Luke 7:38Standing behind Him at His feet, wept, wet His feet with tears, and kept wiping them with hair of her head, kissing His feet anointed with perfume.

Hebrews 12:17Afterwards, he desired to inherit blessing, was rejected, found no place for repentance with tears.

Nehemiah 8:9Nehemiah, the governor, and Ezra the priest and scribe, and the Levites who taught the people said to all the people, “This day is holy to the LORD your God; do not mourn or weep.” For all the people were weeping when they heard the words of the law.

Jeremiah 3:21A voice heard weeping by supplication for sons of Israel perverted their way,  forgot the LORD their God.

James 5:1Come now, you rich, weep and howl for miseries are coming upon you.

Numbers 25:6Then behold, one of the sons of Israel came and brought to his relatives a Midianite woman, in the sight of Moses and in the sight of all the congregation of the sons of Israel, were weeping at the doorway of the tent of meeting.

Deuteronomy 1:45“Returned and wept before the LORD; but the LORD did not listen to your voice nor give ear to you.

Judges 20:26The sons of Israel and all people went up and came to Bethel and wept, remained before the LORD fasted until evening. Offered burnt offerings and peace offerings before the LORD.

Judges 21:2People came to Bethel and sat there before God until evening, and lifted up their voices and wept bitterly.

Ezra 3:12-13Many of priests, Levites and heads of fathers’ households, old men who saw first temple, wept with loud voice when foundation of house laid before their eyes shouted aloud for joy,

Isaiah 22:12-13In that day the Lord GOD of hosts called you to weeping, wailing, shaving head and wearing sackcloth.

Jeremiah 25:34“Wail, you shepherds cry wallow in ashes, you masters of the flock, days of your slaughter dispersions have come to fall like choice vessel.

Jeremiah 31:9“With weeping they will come, And by supplication I will lead them; I will make them walk by streams of waters, On a straight path in which they will not stumble; For I am a father to Israel, And Ephraim is My firstborn.”

Jeremiah 50:4 At that time,” declares the LORD, “sons of Israel will come, they and the sons of Judah as well; they will go along weeping as they go, and it will be the LORD their God they will seek.

Lamentations 1:2She weeps bitterly in the night And her tears are on her cheeks; She has none to comfort her Among all her lovers All her friends have dealt treacherously with her; They became her enemies.

Lamentations 2:18Their heart cried out to the Lord, wail daughter of Zion let tears run down like river day and night; Give yourself no relief, eyes no rest.

Joel 2:12“Even now,” declares the LORD, “Return to Me with all your heart, And with fasting, weeping and mourning;

Amos 5:16-17Thus says the LORD God of hosts, “There is wailing in plazas, streets ‘Alas! Alas!’ They call farmers to mourn, professional mourners to lamentation.

Amos 8:10“I will turn your festivals into mourning your songs into lamentation; And bring sackcloth on everyone’s loins, baldness on every head And make it like a time of mourning for an only son, And the end of it will be like a bitter day.

Zechariah 12:10-11 “I will pour out on the house of David and on the inhabitants of Jerusalem, the Spirit of grace and of supplication, so that they will look on Me whom they have pierced; and they will mourn for Him, as one mourns for an only son, and they will weep bitterly over Him like the bitter weeping over a firstborn.

Matthew 8:12The sons of the kingdom will be cast out into outer darkness; in that place there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.”

Psalm 119:136My eyes shed streams of water for not keeping Your law.

Jeremiah 13:17If you do not listen My soul will sob in secret for your pride my eyes bitterly weep flowing down with tears as flock of the LORD taken captive.

2 Corinthians 2:4Out of affliction and anguish of heart I wrote to you with many tears; not to be made sorrowful, but to know my love for you.


cross-671379_640 (1)Jesus said on the Cross, “Father forgive them for they did not know what they were doing.” The Blood of the Lamb is significant in preparation for Passover in 2 weeks called Shabbat HaChodesh (החודש שבת). Blood Sacrifice of Jesus Once accepted by God restores closeness, intimacy between God and HIS people. Iniquities, sins separating from God prevents maintaining a close relationship with HIM restored by Jesus. Bible says, Iniquities separate people from God because sins hide HIS Face so HE does not hear in Isaiah 59:2. Core concept of blood sacrifice to atone for sin is God’s redemption plan sacrificial death of Messiah. Yeshua’s death on the Cross is solid basis of Christianity. It is the solid foundation in the Word of God to rightly understand how Jesus forgives people. Despite forgiveness of God some people have guilty conscience over past sins causes so alienated from God, despite receiving forgiveness. So Blood Sacrifice of Yeshua shed restores right relationship with God completely cleans traces of a guilty conscience. The Blood of Messiah through eternal Spirit offered Himself without blemish to God cleans conscience from dead works to serve living God in Hebrews 9:14. Yet some followers of Yeshua struggle with guilt and condemnation though Word of God promises all in Christ Messiah are free indeed. Therefore there is now no condemnation for those in Yeshua the Messiah who do not walk in the flesh in Romans 8:1. The blood of the lamb was applied to the doorposts of homes in Egypt so blood of Yeshua is applied to our hearts, by faith, to wash us clean from every trace of guilty conscience and shame over our past sins. Draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, having hearts sprinkled from evil conscience and bodies washed with pure water in Hebrews 10:22. The pure living water Jesus cleans by immersion symbolic of the new spiritual birth.


IMG_20180314_170036One most heart wrenching experience we had is dealing with young people who feel sharing chronic life pain with others is embarrassing and belittling oneself. Therefore pain is concealed to prevent humiliation and being mocked as weak. When one is feeling well and able to contain pain within reasonable strength, it may be alright. The issue is the body can only take so much pain at a time. This means containing the pain is limited to circumstances and critical condition affecting ability to hold pain. Internal damage, if not detected early delays, inhibits and prevents treatment. Keeping up appearances, not revealing true pain affects treatment. Not wanting to come across as a ‘crying baby’ means some refuse to tell their doctors, nurses their true extent of pain. Any unusual unfamiliar pain surfacing in the body on and off needs equal attention as the ongoing obvious chronic pain. Please even if pain seems insignificant get checked to eliminate doubt or confirm need for treatment. Many fear being labeled a hypochondriac so they ignore pain until it festers beyond treatment. With health budget cuts it is essential to get to hospital early for a third-party service to be arranged to arrive on time. Health services are stretched beyond measure so few staff available to attend to urgent calls, shortage of beds, among lack of resources. Waiting hours, days for emergency kits delays treatments so client deteriorates in some cases. IMG-20180314-WA0004 It is important to attend hospital early at first sign of symptoms because delay causes damage to organs due to lack of detection for appropriate treatment. If pain delayed alright in past, remember things changing so fast one cannot take life for granted anymore. The body’s immune system is impacted by pain and potential to heal faster. A fairly healthy body responds faster to treatment than body damaged and failing although best treatment is given. Attend appointments ask people to buy daysaver for you, pay for your medications or go with you as a friend to support you during treatment. Do not worry or feel embarrassed by an illness or condition because others don’t walk in your shoes so never understand your pain. Do not be stoic, macho about illness thinking the people will laugh at you. Your life is precious so take hold of life and preserve your body as much as you can. Chronic pain affects physical body, mind, emotions, drains, causes pressure, stress, makes person passive, tired, affects finances too. Many years of dealing with chronic pain impacts joy, lifestyle, family, interaction, friends and colleagues. Be kind and help discreetly, invite them for meals, shopping, give token gift cards, vouchers help them. when-problems-comes-into-your-life-like-a-non-stop-rain-30859647Punitive insurance is very detrimental to congenital health issues so some do not disclose in case it is used against them. Chronic pain affects all aspects of life studies, exams, college, university and employment. Constantly iinterrupts life events surrounding the whole family supporting them. It is quite sad in the midst of superabundance many people with chronic health issues cannot heat their home, eat hot food essential for good health. They hide their needs so not do not share personal details of life as they feel embarrassed. Many live in extreme poverty, punished by system in pain unable to attend GP’s appointments. DWP asking GP to ‘prove’ that a lifelong permanent illness needs medical certificate hurts, is exhausting to chase doctors appointment. People with congenital problems for life need support to manage their lives rather than prove really ill. The one size fits all approach assessment is inappropriate so refusing to pay them income support frustrates them and humiliates them. Unable to hold down jobs due to health problems feel sad because of lack of permanent department for treatment moved around wards. And takes hours, days, weeks for the critical emergency care resources to arrive, put person on hold. It is really unfortunate essential health is delayed, limited by resources so one cannot have a last attitude to health. It is necessary to eat, sleep, rest, educate the people around you about health matters so they do not think you are act weird. No one wants to focus entire life on painful lifestyle so prefer to keep it quiet disclosed to few trusted people. It’s difficult to seek help, and to intervene in such cases. However breaking confidentiality is necessary if at risk to themselves and need urgent help. They will thank you later when they get better so seek help on their behalf and get the right team to help the recovery process. Do not feel meddling in their private life or business because longterm chronic illness affects clarity, thinking and a decision making process. Dealing with chronic pain affects skills, employment, cumbersome student loan debts do not have any regular source of income. Please kindly help them with donations no matter how small some say they are alright, do not need help. In reality it is because they feel embarrassed or shy not wanting to burden others with their problem, prevents them asking for help. Such a behaviour is detrimental to their health, not eating properly, starving not living with heating, unable to afford bus fare for hospital appointments or to buy prescriptions ultimately affects chronic pain sufferer’s health and well-being to thrive. Worst of all punished by policies that do not consider genetic disorder or chronic pain as deserving support so no funds given so live without any income. No matter age of adult dependant cared for ensure you advocate on their behalf by power of attorney to negotiate best help available for them. Directly contact GPs, consultants, third-party front line service providers to meticulously seek help because they become so exhausted and worn out dealing with the longterm pain. Above all, God is the healer who did surgery and took Adam’s rib used to create Eve, yet Adam healed instantly so woke up immediately and saw his wife. Seek God’s Divine intervention to heal pain of loved one in the mind, body and soul resurrected in Christ into eternity. Be faithful and loyal not to grow weary in well doing because taking care of the loved one can take its toll on feelings or emotions. Ask for strength from God to do your duties in love as unto the LORD knowing your reward is in heaven. Bear with loved ones, chronic pain affects all areas of life. Be there for them, pray for strength to live in peace of God passing all human understanding in the Name of Jesus. Bless and tell them about love of Jesus and eternal life in Christ.


International-Bereaved-Mothers-Day-Alexis-Marie-Chute-Wanted-Chosen-Planned-mothers-grow-loveBereaved mother’s day celebrates their precious memories of loved ones who passed into heaven. Mothers nurture children so their loss feels like the heart is ripped out. After crying until no more tears left this day is also a time to reflect on good times to remember loved ones. Recalling a loved ones nature, favourite foods, jokes, life, personality, nuances is still part of life within family. Continue to talk if ones feels like doing so, cry if it is how one feels, sing, dance, join others especially friends to express loved one’s life from various forms. Family, friends, colleague’s take on life with loved ones different so shared experiences from a fascinating perspective. mothers-dayns memory book and collage of loved ones to post on a wall, Facebook, website anywhere they are celebrated. Passing into Glory is not the end of life neither is it an end of your life. Heaven is continuation of life on earth so continue to remember and to honour memories. Out of all the challenges of life the loss of a child is the worst form of pain because no one expects to bury their child. One expects children as arrows in the quiver to bury parents to continue the family line. Such unexpected events happen in life and despite adversity life goes on. Especially the loved ones do not want to be their source of grief and sorrow forever.Mothers-Day-Flower-792x1024 One great lesson learnt losing a loved one is one understands how God feels about giving HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON as ransom for many. Bereavement is an experience one cannot fully describe to anyone unless they have personally been through it too. However, God Omnipotent is loving Father even in the midst of pain, grief and sorrow our God is good all the time and all the time God is good. And Father God strengthens and comforts through the Holy Spirit our comforter. There are days one copes better than others and other days one feels like is meaningless without loved ones. Loved one are part of life in family so not lost just because they passed into Glory to be with our LORD. IMG_20180310_084906As a matter of heaven connects directly with earth on a constant daily basis that life is in tune with both. God’s will is done on earth as it is in heaven so GOD sends angels to surround and help us sometimes we are unaware of God’s Divine interventions on earth. So mother as many people as you can and if possible keep memories alive and be available to support others in similar situations. God entrusts mothers with a family as stewards and so does the best they can to look after their loved ones. It is important to remember Psalm 117:7 says God cares about the righteous who die so knows and understands the pain of grief. With prayer, praise, Worship of God and support of friends and family a loss is easier to bear.51JARx7VB-L._SY400_I-give-thanks-to-my-God-upon-every-remembrance-of-you.-Mothers-Day-AnExtraordinaryDay.net_ IMG_20180310_085206

Mourning with HOPE and trust God to carry you through the dreadful pain of bereavement. Another powerful source of encouragement is to remember that life on earth is a passing journey. Our life on earth is wonderful but as citizens of heaven our real home is heaven in the presence of the LORD Jesus and Father God. Then in Rapture the dead arise together meet Jesus into the clouds into heaven. End time events rapidly approaching on earth point to a world-changing as Jesus said in Matthew 24 warned. And so with God all things are possible including the strength to live and go through bereavement grief with God holds your hands and footsteps of Jesus in the sand carries you through the difficult days. Each day is different so embrace love of God to endure to the end as a faithful steward of God in Jesus Name with thanks and Glory to God.


Last night, as we snuggled up to read your bedtime story, you asked me the question Daddy and I have been half expecting. With a slight ripple across your brow and your blue eyes wide, you said: ‘Mummy, why don’t I have a brother or sister?’

Are you an only child and did you know why you became one literally? Perhaps it is a health or a financial circumstance beyond parent’s control or unfortunate situation of loss of parent making it not possible to have siblings. The parents of an only son have written a letter to him explaining their choice and decision to him alone. The letter stated that mother found out ‘last night, as we snuggled up to read your bedtime story, you asked a question Daddy and was half expecting. With slight ripple across your brow and your blue eyes wide, you said: ‘Mummy, why don’t I have a brother or sister?’ I kissed the top of your head, squeezed you closer and momentarily panicked about how on earth to answer. At four years and four months, you are clearly starting to notice many of friends at nursery talk of siblings or babies. And thankfully this time, you gave me a reprieve turning your attention straight to dinosaur story read to you.’ Last night, as we snuggled up to read your bedtime story, you asked me the question Daddy and I half expected. With a slight ripple across your brow and blue eyes wide, you said: ‘Mummy, why don’t I have a brother or sister? But I know one day the ‘why’ will become more persistent. Daddy and I are far from alone in deciding to stop at one child. Apparently by 7years, half of all families in this country will only have one offspring. Not that it stops me from feeling occasional pang of guilt. I know there will be many positives to decision like our undivided attention for starters so you never know a prickly adjustment period when a new baby arrives. How about sibling rough and tumble you’ll miss out on? A constant companionship for better or worse? I cannot pretend it hasn’t been a real dilemma. Yes, there have been moments when my resolve wobbled particularly as you get closer to starting school so baby no more. Who doesn’t get broody when they see a tiny newborn enfolded in a mother’s arms. But deep down, I know we’ve made the most responsible choice. I just hope, as you grow older, you agree. The truth is Daddy and I would loved another child but quite simply are too old. We liked the idea of two or maybe more, Daddy even hoped for twins! We imagined you all together and nobody ever short of a playmate, bundling you all into the bath after a day at the beach or the park. Sometimes I do wonder if we left it too late to start our little family. After all, we’ve been together for 19 years. Will you wonder what we were doing all that time? know many positives to our decision of undivided attention, helps you thrive. But I turned 44 last year, a day you and Daddy helped me devour the birthday cake I’d made. ‘That’s REALLY old!’ you exclaimed. In terms of having another baby, you were right. More women are have babies well into 40s and beyond but risks proven to be grater for mum and baby not least Down’s Syndrome or other birth defects. I wonder if we left it too late to start family. After all, we’ve been together for 19 years so wondering what we were doing all this time? We met through mutual friends in our mid-20s, drawn together by similarities: we’re both driven, determined, sociable and aspire to wring the most from life. But like many of our generation, chose naively it turned out to let time slip by. Distracted by careers, Daddy as a chartered surveyor and board director, and me as a journalist, we saved like mad for our future, bought property, played hard and enjoyed exciting holidays all over the world. Sometimes I do wonder if we left it too late to start our little family. For 19 years prepared in advance for your arrival. Family and friends badgered us about settling down but we felt buying a home together was the greatest commitment. I know there will be many positives to our decision — all that undivided attention, for starters, and you’ll never know that prickly adjustment period when a new baby arrives There were the more important things paying off a mortgage, for example than a wedding to spend money on. As for having a family, conscious of getting older, of course, honestly didn’t think leaving it to late 30s was a problem. After all, many friends in a similar situation. And in February 2011 of 12 years together, finally married at a beautiful country house in North Yorkshire. By then we were financially secure, happy, had bought a spacious barn conversion and wanted nothing more than to have a little family. But three months after our wedding, early one cool, grey May morning, my own beautiful, adoring mummy your granny died. She’d had cancer for four agonising years, and in the end the doctors and nurses couldn’t do anything more to save her. If I had just one wish in life it was that Granny had lived to meet you. She would have been besotted by your mischievousness, love of being silly and making people smile traits you share with her. Losing her made me all the more desperate to become a mum. I wanted to love and nurture another little person the way she’d always loved my brother and me. I longed to watch her warmth, wisdom and trademark cheerfulness live on in her grandchild. Grief stricken, I barely ate or slept for months.Grief stricken, I barely ate or slept for months. I ran for miles at a time as a coping mechanism and lost a lot of weight despite being slim anyway 

I ran for miles at a time as a coping mechanism and lost a lot of weight despite being slim anyway. Perhaps we shouldn’t have been surprised when, after almost two years of trying to have a baby, doctors confirmed that the shock of losing Granny had caused my body to shut down. I was almost 40 by so we referred for IVF. That’s when something magical happened against all the odds. In late January 2013, I went to fertility clinic in outskirt of Nottingham for some initial scans before starting a treatment. After minutes, sonographer took off her glasses, wiped a tear from her eye and said: ‘You’re not going to believe this you are already pregnant!’ I was around five weeks, but there you were on the sonographer’s screen, a microscopic dot. I cried, and couldn’t wait to tell Daddy. We were elated you arrived in September that year by a planned Caesarean section. I adored you in an instant with your cute little face and love of a cuddle. When I delve into my handbag for a lipstick and instead pull out a toy car or a dirty twig from the park that you’ve put there, it makes me smile 

But I admit I struggled emotionally for a long time. Within a space of under two and a half years went through the two significant events in a woman’s life losing my mum and having a baby of my own. Not having Granny around at that time was heart-wrenching. During the three days that you and I were in hospital, I longed for my mum to walk in, beaming and saying: ‘Aren’t you a clever girl? He’s absolutely gorgeous!’ When Gramps came alone to meet you for the first time, he hadn’t seemed more solitary since Granny’s death. In the months that followed, I’d take you for seven-mile walks in pram along the canal paths and country trails close to our home and tears would roll down my cheeks as I daydreamed about Mum walking by my side. When I delve into my handbag for a lipstick and instead pull out a toy car or a dirty twig from the park that you’ve put there, it makes me smile  What I’d give to have just one photograph of her cuddled up cheek-to-cheek with you. Daddy was wonderfully sensitive and supportive. But at times I felt very alone, as many women do after having a baby. The impossible sadness was juxtaposed by the unrivalled joy you brought to Daddy and me.I know that watching you with a little brother or sister would be a delight. But another baby now? I was 40 by the time I had you. We quickly decided it was more important to enjoy you, rather than focus on trying for another simply because the clock was ticking 

You make us laugh uncontrollably often every day with your funny little ways and your constant chatter and wonder at the world around us. I was 40 by the time I had you. You’re as affectionate and loving as you are boisterous and wilful, destined to be strong-willed given our own personalities! And even when you’re throwing a tantrum we wouldn’t want it any other way. I know watching you with a little brother or sister would be a delight. But another baby now? I was 40 by the time I had you. We quickly decided it was more important to enjoy you, rather than focus on trying for another simply because the clock was ticking. After all, there are so many couples who’d give anything to have just one child. And who’s to say it would have happened a second time, given how long it took us to have you? Plus, at what point do you draw a line under the disappointment of trying and failing? Besides, we’d found being a family of three suits all of us. I am still able to do a job I love while you’re at nursery three days a week. More importantly, Daddy and I are able to focus our attention on you rather than feeling torn between more than one child. Your energy knows no bounds and I have to run you like a dog every day to expend it. I’m not sure I could cope with another little one fizzing with such effervescence. You have always loved your sleep, too: And imagine if you had a sibling who wailed all night for months. That said, I can’t deny the occasional well of sadness: the ‘what ifs’ and fear you’ll miss out on the fun of having a sibling. If I had just one wish in life it would be that Granny had lived to meet you. She would have been besotted by your mischievousness, love of being silly and making people smile — traits you share with her Since I’ve always been so close to my own little brother your uncle Robbie, 42, who loves to tickle and dangle you upside down. Daddy and I have often looked wistfully at our friends with four kids: they’re never without a ready-made playmate. On the other hand, we know siblings who fought terribly as children and barely speak as adults. We know lots of gloriously happy, and well grounded, sociable, selfless children including your brilliant cousin, Saffron, who’s five years older than you. It was adorable watching you playing together on the beach and in the pool on a recent family holiday in Spain. How I chuckled listening to the two of you animatedly discussing favourite or not vegetables in back of car. Nobody ever questioned our decision although there are friends who still tell us: ‘Go on, have another!’ Some people assume things of an only child that they are spoilt because they don’t learn to share. Or they miss out on so much. But Daddy and I will ensure you never feel isolated or become spoilt. Bracing ourselves to hosting lots of play dates sleepovers. We’ll do everything to encourage you to continue to be sociable caring confident little boy you already are. What I’ve realised more than anything is there is actuala much shorter answer to your question. Quite simply, Daddy and I feel enormously fortunate to have one healthy, happy, hilarious little boy who fills our lives with magic every day. We have never been left wanting more.